word for the day: here
start.
and so here i am again. waiting.
i almost don't want to exhale the pressure is built up so tight inside my chest. i look up at the ceiling afraid to breathe lest i cry and never stop.
over on the wall is written the word hope.
h.o.p.e.
and i nod my head because it is true. i wait here and dare not move because i hope in You. i hope something will change and am almost afraid to believe it would or could. but i know that You are faithful and will never leave me.
you see straight into the deepest parts. where the darkness lies and where i cannot run anymore and cannot hide. You open me up and read me like a book and as the red rises to my cheeks i dare not look away for You see me. You really do see.
when no one else sees.
if i dare to let the tears fall, you are not ashamed of my weakness.
oh. so. deep. it. goes.
trying so hard to be strong and to believe the right thing. to say the right thing.
just. the. right. thing.
but i don't know. and so i sit here, right here, and wait. i must have You meet me. i must encounter You because i really have no one else.
stop.
yikes, didn't think i was going to open up that can of worms.
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charis
